What if at the root of every emotion there is love?
I've been feeling a lot of fear lately. And I've been doing my usual looking into it, feeling into it, asking why. And I've found that underneath it is love.
After years of doing this work, I was feeling that when fear shows up in an abundant amount it is a marker for change and growth. It's letting me know good things are on the other side of this.
Wouldn't it be great if we could just bypass the fear and get to those good things? :)
But that doesn't work, so I do the work and feel into this fear and what I encounter is my belief that I'm not good enough. And I dig a touch more to find that it's the belief I'm not good enough to be loved. So I do my usual feeling and processing but this time I find this part of me doesn't necessarily want to be processed, it wants to be loved exactly as it is. It wants to know that she doesn't need to change in order to be loved.
Isn't interesting how the layers unfold? I've encountered this before in myself but this time it was a deep "Hello, you don't need to change me. Love and accept me just as I am." So I did. I let that part of me know she doesn't need to change in order for me to love her. She can keep believing she's not enough. She can keep using that defense if she wants. I'll let it unveil in it's own time, because I know that truthfully I am enough. And when she's ready to embrace that truth, I'll be there to support, love, and accept her. That is love.
Hello, dear ones:
I am with you, feeling the ups, downs, and bumps of this time. I've had a few days of fear and not being in grounded in my body and that's okay. This morning I woke up and thought:
This is a virus.
It is small (physically) and I am large (in comparison - somehow this thought helped me)
I am full of wisdom and intelligence that dances all throughout my body and cells
I have a healthy immune system
Why am I giving all my power to a virus?
And it shifted. I feel more grounded, more calm, more in my center.
I've been pulling back from social media. I find when I'm on it that the fear is amplified. At this moment though I do plan to do some lives on IG and FB offering some love and tips, etc., at some point. Please know that I am honouring myself deeply at this time and will only be sharing lives when and if I feel centered and feel called to from my heart, instead of the slight pressure I sometimes feel to share something meaningful there.
What's grounding me at the moment?
Tuning into my womb
Being so grateful for, and using often, my connection to my inner wisdom and guidance. I am my own authority. I am following all the suggestions set out by CDC and GNB at this time, but when it comes to everything I see on the media and social media I check in - does this feel true to me? Does this align with where I want to be right now? Is this helpful to take in right now? I'm not suggesting being ignorant. I'm suggesting the exact opposite. I'm suggesting you trust yourself and listen to your body's messages. Mine has been suggesting I drink lots of water, honour my emotions, and it has been telling me very clearly when to go to bed, which is usually earlier than I think.
Hearing our body's wisdom and messages comes when we are grounded, not in fight or flight. For that reason I'm offering single coaching sessions at 25% off to help you ground and tune in. They can be done virtually through a video chat, or by phone. If you'd like to honour your emotions and feel calmer and more supportive of yourself and your family during this time, reply to this email and let's connect.
I am wrapping you in love.
This past weekend I watched Brene Brown's Call to Courage on Netflix. It was excellent of course! I recommend watching it. There is so much great material in it. There's one piece that's been sticking with me that isn't even the main point of the show. Near the end she mentions that women most often feel shame around their body image and men most often feel shame around their role as providers. I have since been reflecting on this.
As women I know we are so much more than our appearance. SO much more. And I know there is some good emotional material of my own to dig into here. For now though I'll say that it angers and frustrates me to think that we still live in a culture where a women's appearance is so heavily emphasized and that it is something we still experience so much shame around.
A friend of mine said "if only eyes could see souls". I agree.
As if it isn't enough to feel pressure to look a certain way and be a certain size, how about the thousands of us who just purely don't feel safe in our bodies? Energetically many of us are not grounded in our physical bodies. Our energy is in our heads most of the time, or even beyond our heads and outside our bodies completely. Whether that's for the simple fact that you're a woman and that might not feel safe to you; or because you don't fit the particular mold set out in magazines, television, runways, social media, or even family and friends. Or perhaps you have experienced physical or emotional trauma that's left part of you believing that it's not safe to be in this body. Energetically, even the experience of an emotion that we don't want to feel can leave our energy sort of hovering above us - "Nope, don't want to go in there, don't want to feel that." Not to mention the pace of life that surrounds us, the disconnection from nature, and the constant bombardment of wifi, cell phone signals, environmental pollutants, a culture that emphasizes knowledge over embodiment, etc etc.
Let's switch this up to something a little more positive. I invite you to close your eyes and take the time to ask yourself the following questions. What would it feel like to live in a world where people feel safe in their bodies? How do those people interact with you? How do they interact with themselves? How do they move? What do they look like? How do they speak to themselves? How do they speak to you? How are they in their relationships? How are they at work? How are they in their general lives? How do they treat their bodies? How do you feel when you feel safe in your body? And how do you treat your body when you feel safe in it? Does the way you feel in your body relate to the way you feel in the world?
The above paragraph is available in audio below so that you can really feel into this and notice what comes up.
For now, put your hands on your belly, take 3 deep breaths, and say to yourself "It is safe to be in this body. It is safe to be in this body. It is safe to be in this body".
How do you feel now? How do you feel in your body? How do you feel about your body's appearance?
You are beautiful. I mean it.
Oh my, I have developed quite the relationship with fear.
It's been running the show for a while.
And I let it.
But that's okay. Its all part of my journey. And it's brought me to this point, writing this email to you.
For a while now I've been guided to do something that I have not been doing. To bring together what I've learned from over 10 years of training and personal journeying, reflection, and growth. To offer my services to the people I know have been waiting to work with me. To put this all together under the title of Coaching.
But fear showed up and got really loud. She showed up in the form of procrastination, wanting to stay small and unseen, thinking I needed to do more training and personal work before I'd be ready, delaying, hesitating, the inner critic, scarcity thinking, and more. She's really good at doing her job - keeping me in the small comfortable box I've placed around myself. And I thank her for that.
And now that we are friends, I can say "Fear, thank you for doing your job so well. But unless there is a saber-tooth tiger in front of us, it's okay for you to rest. It's okay for you to trust in something a little bigger than you. It's okay for you to trust Soul."
And so now I am strengthening my relationship with Soul and letting her voice be louder. Allowing her to shine. Allowing her to do what she is here to do. Listening and tuning in. Following her guidance. Allowing my connection to her to be of benefit to others.
Want to join me on this soul-full journey?
You will benefit from my Coaching if you identify with any of the following:
- You have been playing it small. You are ready to expand but don't know how to break out. Even the term "break out" freaks you out but yet you feel the pull and the nudges in your heart.
- You are sensitive, emotional, and intuitive, even if you don't give yourself credit for that last one. You want to know how to navigate your world with these beautiful qualities of yours and feel empowered, centered, and thriving instead of stressed, burnt-out, and half-alive.
- You know there is something sacred and powerful about being a woman and want to embrace your femininity and sensuality in a way that feels safe and empowering for you.
- You have unique gifts you want to share with the world but you feel so much standing in your way that you don't know how to begin. So you just don't bother trying or you start and reach a roadblock and then give up.
- More than anything you want the freedom to be completely and honestly yourself. Authenticity is your game and you're working on it but could use a little help. AND deep down you know that your Soul can't wait for you to shine! And that your Soul circle/community/friends are just waiting for you to show up.
Natalie loves life, people, animals, plants, and trees. She believes in the flow of life and approaches each day with gratitude.