What if at the root of every emotion there is love?
I've been feeling a lot of fear lately. And I've been doing my usual looking into it, feeling into it, asking why. And I've found that underneath it is love.
After years of doing this work, I was feeling that when fear shows up in an abundant amount it is a marker for change and growth. It's letting me know good things are on the other side of this.
Wouldn't it be great if we could just bypass the fear and get to those good things? :)
But that doesn't work, so I do the work and feel into this fear and what I encounter is my belief that I'm not good enough. And I dig a touch more to find that it's the belief I'm not good enough to be loved. So I do my usual feeling and processing but this time I find this part of me doesn't necessarily want to be processed, it wants to be loved exactly as it is. It wants to know that she doesn't need to change in order to be loved.
Isn't interesting how the layers unfold? I've encountered this before in myself but this time it was a deep "Hello, you don't need to change me. Love and accept me just as I am." So I did. I let that part of me know she doesn't need to change in order for me to love her. She can keep believing she's not enough. She can keep using that defense if she wants. I'll let it unveil in it's own time, because I know that truthfully I am enough. And when she's ready to embrace that truth, I'll be there to support, love, and accept her. That is love.
As it becomes more and more obvious that our natural world, the environment, and our earth are in desperate need of our help and love and respect I keep getting called back to womb wisdom.
Womb wisdom can be many things. One of the most significant pieces of it for me is how guiding womxn to connect with their wombs naturally inclines them to connect more deeply with nature. It's hard to describe how or why this happens but it so clearly happens that I am often in awe. We come from the womb and we come from the earth. We consume food and water from the earth everyday; we walk on the earth; we breathe in their air. These are integral parts of being human. These are integral parts of the earth.
I first noticed this a while ago, when I offered the online course Dancing Your Moon Cycle. But actually it goes back even further to a Reiki session with Jocelyn Clark (Reiki Cottage) when she suggested I read Wild Feminine by Tami Lynn Kent. She generously lent me that book which I didn't pay much attention to for probably another year. And then when I picked it up again everything I read resonated. All of it. How womb wisdom connects us to the wild, to nature. How it connects us to our ancestors. How deep long held patterns of conditioning, emotion, and stories can be held here. During this time I also realized I was doing some deep holding in my own womb. Physically, yes there was tension, but I knew that tension was associated with something bigger. And as I continue to explore this medicine and let go more and more of what's holding me back from being authentically who I am, and feeling connected deeply to nature and the earth, I return to parts of me that have been lost for a long time, and parts of the womxn in my family that were shut down for many, many reasons.
I sometimes think that things like womb wisdom become fads. Just like how Yoga, and ancient science and art, has become a fad. And that discourages me to be honest. I guess because these things start to be approached without the respect and reverence they deserve.
If I told you that you carry a sacred seed in you that allows the human race to continue, and to continue to evolve physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, would you believe me? If I told you that this place in your temple, your body, is the root of all your creativity and that it connects you to all the womxn who have come before you and all the womxn who have come after you, would you feel that remembering in your body? And if I told you that you are connected to a sacred cycle which is connected to the cycle of the moon, nature's seasons, and the rhythm and heartbeat of the earth, would you then feel a piece in you open up to reveal this sacred wisdom that's been passed down through centuries?
These are just some of the things about our wombs that deserve respect and reverence. And the earth deserves just as much respect and reverence, if not more.
It's no surprise or coincidence that nature has been neglected, trampled on, destroyed around the same time in history that womxn have been deemed the lesser sex, witches were burned, we've been paid less to do the same work as men, etc. etc. I don't want to go too much into the negative. But sometimes it's needed in order to open our eyes and hearts. If reading this makes you feel something, that is a good thing. Can you be with those feelings? What are they telling you?
Feelings and womxn and the earth is a whole other blog post that I'll share with you some day. And there's so much more about womb wisdom to share. For now know that you deserve all the love, respect, equality, abundance, joy, prosperity, opportunity, kindness in the world! And so does the earth. <3
If you're looking for suggestions on what to do to help take care of the earth check out my blog post "For the Earth..."
I like to check in and review/revise my vision for my work in the world every so often. But really, it's not work. It's me being who I am. And when you are you, you bring your "work" into the world too!
Sometimes I like to record myself speaking about it. I find when I do it that way words come out that I might not if I were writing instead. So yesterday I sat down to record my vision and now I'm sharing it with you!
I'm sharing because this vision feels closer than it ever has before. We are really shifting and changing now, even if you don't feel it, even if you're resisting it. Change is going to serve us. It is serving us.
Below is the uncut, uncensored version of my vision. It flowed out of me easily and includes my sexy morning voice, me gulping down bone broth, and some swear words. Prefer a cleaner, written out version? Click here.
If my vision resonates with you, reach out! Let's chat! I can help guide you in that direction. Free 30 min. Connection Calls are available to those who feel pulled to 1-on-1 Coaching with me. It's such a fun journey! And can help you shift and adjust through these changes.
Now share your vision with me! What's your vision for women in our world moving forward? How about the LGBTQ2 community? The BIPOC community? The homeless community? The environment? We all have our own unique set of gifts to share! Who will benefit from you being you?
Holay, Woman! It is time to rise up!
I've had this feeling for years. And the more I observe what is happening with my family and friends, my community, my city, country, and the world, the more I know this to be true.
And with the rhythms of Mother Nature, the pull of the Moon Cycles, and the unveiling of Spring, I feel it even more.
As women, womxn, femmes, insert whatever words feels good to you here, we are needed. We are part of the balance. Part of the healing. Part of the Love that we are all searching for.
Here are three ways to begin. To rise up and share who you are with the world.
1. Express you.
Close your eyes. Imagine expressing yourself freely, authentically, without concern for what other people think. What are you doing? Are you moving or still? Are you putting energy out or receiving? Are you creating or taking in creation? Where are you? Are you talking, singing, humming, or silent? Are you alone or with someone? What feels good? What do you feel in your body? What feels like you?
2. Connect to Mama Nature.
She is you. You are her. That connection is there all the time. If you don't feel it right now, what would help you feel it? Where would you go to feel it? What surrounds you when you feel connected to nature? How do you feel when you have that connection? How do you feel when you breathe in her air? Drink her water? Feel the warmth of the sun on your skin? Walk on her earth? How does she want to connect with you?
3. Step into who you are.
Get your journal out or invite a friend over for tea and chat this one over.
What does being a woman, femme, womxn, mean to you?
It's open. There are no rules.
Soft or strong.
Vulnerable or defensive.
Big or small.
Wise or not.
Busy or not.
Loving or not.
Maybe all of these.
Without the pressure of what you been taught, what the media presents, and what your peers say, who are you?
Maybe even without the label of woman/femme/womxn, who are you?
I can't wait to meet you.
Listen to you.
Share with you.
Hold space for you to be who you are.
Hold space for your authentic expansion.
Oh my, I have developed quite the relationship with fear.
It's been running the show for a while.
And I let it.
But that's okay. Its all part of my journey. And it's brought me to this point, writing this email to you.
For a while now I've been guided to do something that I have not been doing. To bring together what I've learned from over 10 years of training and personal journeying, reflection, and growth. To offer my services to the people I know have been waiting to work with me. To put this all together under the title of Coaching.
But fear showed up and got really loud. She showed up in the form of procrastination, wanting to stay small and unseen, thinking I needed to do more training and personal work before I'd be ready, delaying, hesitating, the inner critic, scarcity thinking, and more. She's really good at doing her job - keeping me in the small comfortable box I've placed around myself. And I thank her for that.
And now that we are friends, I can say "Fear, thank you for doing your job so well. But unless there is a saber-tooth tiger in front of us, it's okay for you to rest. It's okay for you to trust in something a little bigger than you. It's okay for you to trust Soul."
And so now I am strengthening my relationship with Soul and letting her voice be louder. Allowing her to shine. Allowing her to do what she is here to do. Listening and tuning in. Following her guidance. Allowing my connection to her to be of benefit to others.
Want to join me on this soul-full journey?
You will benefit from my Coaching if you identify with any of the following:
- You have been playing it small. You are ready to expand but don't know how to break out. Even the term "break out" freaks you out but yet you feel the pull and the nudges in your heart.
- You are sensitive, emotional, and intuitive, even if you don't give yourself credit for that last one. You want to know how to navigate your world with these beautiful qualities of yours and feel empowered, centered, and thriving instead of stressed, burnt-out, and half-alive.
- You know there is something sacred and powerful about being a woman and want to embrace your femininity and sensuality in a way that feels safe and empowering for you.
- You have unique gifts you want to share with the world but you feel so much standing in your way that you don't know how to begin. So you just don't bother trying or you start and reach a roadblock and then give up.
- More than anything you want the freedom to be completely and honestly yourself. Authenticity is your game and you're working on it but could use a little help. AND deep down you know that your Soul can't wait for you to shine! And that your Soul circle/community/friends are just waiting for you to show up.
Natalie loves life, people, animals, plants, and trees. She believes in the flow of life and approaches each day with gratitude.