I had a pap test done today. It had been too long since my last one as that experience was traumatizing.
At that time I didn't have the voice or will power to speak up for myself.
Today, even though the nurse told me to have my feet up and ready to go when the NP came in, I didn't. I stayed seated so I could talk to her and be heard.
I voiced my last experience and asked her to proceed slowly and gently. I let her know that I might need to take some deep breaths before she begins.
This is why womb work is important.
Because many womxn experience trauma related to their wombs, yonis, vulvas. And because many womxn are not taught to speak up for themselves around anyone, much less authority figures such as doctors. And because we're not taught that it's safe to be sovereign, powerful and have autonomy over our bodies, so we give our power and our bodies away and experience more trauma.
It's all related - our womb, our voice, our power.
Today's experience was a positive one. Next time I'll be even more clear - "Please let me know when you are preparing to insert the speculum. I will need to take 3 deep breaths before you do" "Please tell me what you are doing now" etc.
This is how we regain trust, of ourselves and others. By voicing our needs and having them heard and understood.
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Natalie loves life, people, animals, plants, and trees. She believes in the flow of life and approaches each day with gratitude.